I never integrated well into school, struggled to make friends in high school, primary wasn't to bad as well we are younger and don't really understand enemy's so everyone are friends. We played football every single day through primary and every night of my life ( no exaggeration ) through highschool. If I wasn't playing in the streets I would be practicing my control in the garden, hours mindlessly perfecting control a ball coming from the height of a house ( where I would throw it )
Its how I mixed into groups, I wasn't going to waltz into a group announce myself and ask to be friends but I might play football in your team at 5 a side then get chatting and it served me well. I met a lot of very great people through the game.
Its something I will never stop watching and hopefully I can play more if I get back into shape.
I just feel that my current friends are more entertained by drinking or other activity's when deep down I'm still 14 and I want to play football every day.
Here I have included an old image I have found with a some good friends in there, one guy even saved my life but hey, that's another story! So I finally figured out why I feel so down and its well because none of my close friends seem to just want to chill, we always have to be doing an activity. What happened to the old days of sitting outside on the floor just making small talk and kicking ball.
I didn't get into the main team as much as I would have liked but I wasn't fit enough for full sized pitches but in 5 a side my close control paid off and I would just do 'around the world' step overs cut backs, fake look passes and I was quite high up the pecking order to be picked. My biggest regret in life is never getting fitter and stronger because if I could have played 5 a side like 11 a side I would have at least been a more solid player. Also lacked paced so had to rely on trickery as I was quite slow as I was a year younger than everyone else.
But anyone I just wanted to write this to clear some thoughts from my head.